I moved to Thailand for a lot of reasons but none bigger than the need to get away from the 9-5 cubicle grind, I hated having to wake up the same time every day, punching the clock, and being too tired on the weekends to really do anything. The first few years in Thailand I had a lot of drive mostly trying to figure out a way to make money here without having to do my day job (programming). After figuring that out I started this blog as I proceeded to try every single soapy massage in the country and tried as many karaoke bars as my liver could handle. I’m not the first guy nor the last to do this (though possibly the first guy to put his picture and name out there saying i’m a sexpat!).
Now you’ll probably have noticed i’m kinda bored with it all, my adventures are few and far between, I rarely bar fine a girl, I’m not on any dating sites, and the girls i’m fucking I actually remember all their names. That’s probably the evolution of a sexpat in Thailand? The idea of going through the meeting and slaying of new girls is mundane, why open a new can when you’ve already got several open? I’m just finding it tiresome and too easy.
On the outside everything looks great, make more money than I could possibly spend, several 18 y/o’s on speed dial, loyal girlfriend, great friends, and no cubicle to sit in for 9 hours a day. Life couldn’t get any better right? Maybe, this is my dream after all, but is this it?
Lots of my close friends can’t understand why I moved to Bangkok, they know I hated Pattaya and for good reason too. Pattaya is where every reject from England goes to live. Wonder why there’s so many people who throw themselves off of buildings down there? Sit at an expat beer bar in Pattaya and listen to a few conversations you’ll want to throw yourself off a building too. Oh did I mention the locals actually HATE you in Pattaya! Thailand maybe the land of smiles but on Pattaya unless you pay for a smile, you won’t get one.
I moved to Bangkok because Chiang Mai has made me soft, there’s no longer any fire being lit under my ass, there’s no motivation to do anything more than I’m already doing, like I said earlier it’s got so bad that I’m actually fucking the same girls over and over. To put it another way. Living in Thailand has made me so lazy I’m basically a 34y/o retired bum.
Lately I’ve been questioning the wisdom of moving to Thailand before retirement age, I had some goals when I moved here, reached them, now I have none. The only thing that gets me out of bed everyday is hunger and for that I really don’t need to get out of bed either, I don’t need to cook, clean, drive anywhere, work, for lack of a better word my life is pretty pointless and that’s how I wished it!
I’m typically the guy that talks up Thailand, how awesome it is, how cheap it is to live, how easy it is to get laid but it’s all very much dull right now. My hope for moving to Bangkok is to relight the fire and get some motivation back.
